The Sun is Shining & Everything Feels All Right

So, I have been quite reluctant to post. Mostly this is because I'm still struggling with feelings of being a hippie failure. There is so much to think about and speculate about. Most of the time instead of researching so much like I did before, I'm just learning to be content with where I'm at. Good lessons, all. So, here's what has happened recently.

The first maybe two days of taking Tirosint, I was feeling good, then I started feeling badly again. After two weeks (so, that's last week sometime), I went to see my D.O., Miss Alexa, who is totally awesome.

I just told her that I feel horrible (again) and she said, quite simply, "Let's try something new." Options were to either up the dose of Tirosint or start taking some natural desiccated thyroid. I chose to try the pig thyroid because I realized that I had been taking a natural dessicated thyroid in the form of Thyroxal. Cow thyroid. I wonder if the additional thyroid hormones in the Thyroxal was something that my body liked.

D.O. also said that if a dose of 88 mcg of Tirosint isn't helping my body enough, then I might have developed a problem processing the synthetic T4 hormone. Not exactly what I wanted to hear. But right now that's just a maybe. Our bodies need things like B Vitamins, magnesium, etc. to properly process thyroid hormones so I am trying to be diligent about making sure I get all the vitamins I need.

Doctor Awesome told me that she had switched many patients over from Synthroid to natural thyroid and all but ONE loved it and felt lots better. All but one. I asked if she preferred natural desiccated thyroid and she honestly told me she did not have a preference, it was just patient preference.

I really respect her as a Doctor because she is truly interested in a patient as a whole. She mentioned that often times hypothyroid patients who came in had all the right 'numbers' but still felt horrid. Instead of ignoring their complaints, she was willing to switch things up and try a different med.

I mentioned that I was interested in having another baby and Doctor Awesome basically said, "Uh, lets get you figured out first." Which was sad but something that was helpful to hear at the same time.

I think today is Day Four of Piggie Thyroid medicine and I quite like it. I had been having a mid-morning crash every day but I think it was because I took all my vitamins straight away in the a.m. in a big bunch. I forgot to do that today and I actually am less fatigued. ? I have no idea why taking all your vitamins together would cause a body to be fatigued, but okay.

A few days ago I talked with my good friend and she said something that made me feel a little bit less like a failure. I said that after all this time it sure seems like my thyroid isn't kicking in to do it's own job, despite my diet changes and whatnot. I still have this magical hope that someday my thyroid will kick in, especially since my anti-body levels are 'normal'. Anyway, Nina basically said "Why not?" as in, why couldn't your thyroid someday still start working again? "Every three years all the cells in your body turn over, so why couldn't your thyroid come back?" And that was nice to hear. :)

So, here's to feeling better. May God bless my poor, tired frame!