Today's Long Term Goal: Meet John Cusack

I think it's about time for another update of my actual health instead of more rantings about how health-less our society is today, mostly by well-meaning accident.

Today being Saturday, I haven't taken any thyroid medication (neither the herbal Thyroxal or the M.D. version to treat the same problem-Levothyroxine) for 2 and a half weeks.

The other day my dad asked me how I was feeling and I had a hard time summarizing. I don't feel as crazy as I felt before; i.e., I don't have as much trouble falling asleep, I don't have as much twitchiness, and I haven't had any chest pains.

Today I feel just normal, which is my heart's greatest desire. I am tired in the afternoon, but a normal sort of tired that comes from living. My leg is still twitching randomly (and in a not-so-normal way) but it's getting to be less and less. I have arthritis still, sometimes worse than others, but that makes sense if my body is trying to figure itself out. I think that I am swinging back and forth a bit between hyper- and hypo-. This is what Cool Acupuncture Guy said was happening. He also said that my body just needs to get the hang of it and, with the right nutritional and herbal resources, will fix itself.

I'm afraid that in a week I will swing back the 'other' way and be hypothyroid again, fatigued and apathetic about everything.

But, reality aside, I like to think that this is what will happen:

Next week I will realize that is has been three weeks since I've taken medication and will feel better than ever. And week four, I will go back to my Physician's Assistant to get my TSH levels checked and she will say they are perfectly normal. I will gain some weight (but not too much) and not feel so insubstantial. After that, every time I get my blood checked it will be normal and all the crazy antibodies I had will disappear! And also, as I've previously mentioned, a fairy will come by my house with fluffy baby animals and a sack-load of money for us. I might even get to finally meet John Cusack.

For the record, I am still taking ClearVite. For the past few days I have also taken some anti-inflammatory herbs and joint stuff--green tea, milk thistle, ginger, and glucosamine. And even though I'm still on a super restricted diet, I had a Fun-Size Snickers yesterday and nothing horrible happened besides a few extra, suspicious tummy rumbles. I'm not saying I'm going to be downing any of the 'forbidden' items regularly anytime soon, but that is hopeful! (If I could go eat anything, I think I would go to Applebee's, have a burger with a regular bun and a Blonde Brownie with the sizzling caramel syrup. Or Chili's corn chips and salsa. Or...well, the list is pretty long.)

My good news doesn't end there! My hair is growing back. I don't want to make it sound like I'm a cancer patient or anything, but after my DS's birth, my hair thinned out and grew back right away. Someone even asked if I was growing bangs because I have all these annoying, wispy baby hairs everywhere. Anyway, after my c-section, my hair just kept on falling out. Until recently, I'd been feeling like I might just lose it all. Now you can see baby hairs all over and I'm thankful for them. :)